it's been a while

there are so many things in my life to be thankful for, but yesterday in church, i was very especially grateful for Trevor! Craig sat in Daddy's lap before the sacrament and seemed to be pretty good for him (which is a nice change because he has been a little awnry at church recently). It reminded me of how grateful i am to have such a wonderful priesthood leader in our family who can teach our child to sit and be reverent even when I am up on the stand for the music.

last Sunday, Trevor was not able to go and I was running late. So, Craig came up on the stand with me.... talk about a mistake. the first song, he walked a little. the next, he almost played the piano. then for the closing song, i thought i would hold him. halfway through, he's wanting down, to run around and decides to bite me!!!! it was a very rough day. i really missed Trevor and if i would've thought more, i would have sent him to be with my parents, but i kept thinking that ___ would make it better. if i hold him, he will be better....etc. it didn't. instead, i felt like a fool in front of everyone.

so yesterday, i was so relieved to have Trevor with us. he really is such a blessing in my life.

jobs

I have a part time job and Trevor will start his full time job December 15!!

i didn't know this until last fast Sunday, when Trevor bore his testimony and mentioned this. he talked about earlier this year he had applied for the same job he just got accepted for. He said that at the time, he really felt like it was the right thing to do, to apply for a technician job. however, he went through the long hiring process and then was denied the job. we were really bummed about it and confused.

But then, when his work buddy retired from a technician job, he mentioned to his newer boss that he was interested in working full time for public works and his boss made it seem like he would try and get that job opened for him to apply.

well, a month or so goes by and NOTHING. meanwhile, the economy is getting worse and worse and even more engineers (with degrees) are looking for jobs because they don't have one. finally, the jobs gets opened and we are bummed because they have to publicize the open position to the public (for at least a week to a month).

It turned out, that since the position was the same as the job Trevor interviewed and applied for just 6 months earlier, they could use all of those applications for this open job!! so within a week of the job opening AND closing, Trevor has an interview scheduled. we knew from before that either they will call you if you get the job within about 2 days OR, you will get declined via a letter in 2 weeks. well, his interview was on a Monday, but the week was a little weird with days off. Finally, after we were losing hope and having doubts, he was told this last Monday that he had the job.

I knew i needed to keep my faith and like i read in an ensign article a month or so back, Heavenly Father not only will test our faith, but He will test our patience. I know that we will continue to have more tests, but I'm glad that this one has finally worked out.

We really are blessed.

conference talks

This month's ensign, i get to reread the conference talks! i have just started and i love the insight that i can gain from re-reading. Elder L. Tom Perry spoke about Thoroue living a more simple life and suggested we follow some of his guidelines. I love his quotes about similarities in modesty and thoughts. I'll have to actually get the talk and quote it. i also love that when he talked about debts, that smart families don't pay interest, they EARN it! that means they have investments and things to help their money grow more money. we do have credit card debt and need to decrease that, but also continue to save money for rainy days or car issues to help avoid using more credit cards and increasing the debt.

watching over us

a lot has happened this month and i have been much behind of making note of my blessings.



First off, Trevor has been wonderful! i really am blessed with a wonderful husband. I had a job offer for a full time job and a part time job. I knew that working full time would stress me and make it really difficult and so Trevor said to take the half time job, even though it is less money.



Also, Heavenly Father has allowed us to have trevor's position finally open for interviews and he has the interview Monday. we will see how that goes. But i know that if we continue to do our part, Heavenly father will bless us.

choose happiness

I decided to choose happiness in my life and it helped. Monday through Thursday (no class friday!! yay!!) i did it at school and at home and i really feel like it helped me. i took more time to breath and relax instead of letting myself react. that goes back to something we talked about in church a while back. I do not want Satan to help me react badly to things. Instead, i want to decide how I respond. I am not going to let silly drivers get the better of me and get upset over little things.

My husband is so fabulous! I had some horrendous misunderstandings on Friday and I got really upset over them. I don't know if i'm losing it or what? he said tropicana and i heard charleston!! they sound nothing alike. well, the next morning, saturday, he took craig and i for a drive and we had a picnic breakfast to try and watch the sunrise. it was magnificient! the sun did not end up showing too well, due to some very rare cloud coverage that made the sun invisible. but i enjoyed my time with my family and enjoyed feeling so loved by my husband.

spiritual uplifting

i have been having a hard time this past week. i'm trying to have more fun at school and enjoy my life, but it is hard. i was able to go to the women's conference broadcast on saturday and i am so grateful! i felt touched by so many wonderful words, especially President Uchtdorf (not sure how to spell his name).

also, today at church, we had fast Sunday and wonderful lesson going over 3 nephi 8-11. it was wonderful to be uplifted and reminded to focus on the positive in my life.

I decided to make a choice to be happy. I have usually inmy life been a happy person, but i'm not sure Trevor, or people in my life would say that so much anymore. I don't want that. I have some amazing things/people in my life and i want people to know that i appreciate it/them and people that i'm not so close to, i want them to know that i am happy because of all those blessings.

updates

this week, i had track one, the morning class start school and i was their substitute because their teacher had a baby on monday. and let me tell you that the class is wonderful! it helped me really realize that it is just a really difficult class in the afternoon.

I am very glad that i am able to be working. Jade McClellan is watching craig two days a week for us and my mom 2 days and anita watched him on friday! i have so many wonderful people in my life.

with the am class starting school, i remembered that i really do like teaching 5 year olds! they are very sweet. one little boy (and it was so chaotic the first day i don't have a clue who it was) brought me a rose the first day of school!! it's like he knew i had been having it tough and was thanking me for sticking with it! then, a couple days later, a girl in my pm class brought me a fake little rose, but was so sweet about it!

it was still a difficult time at times during my week, but i am enjoying parts of the day.

craig has so much fun! on tuesday, when i picked him up, he actually threw a fit that he had to leave! he had been riding a tricycle around the whole day, practically and loved it! i am so glad he is getting to be around other kids and will hopefully learn to share and get along with others better because of it.

i had my first open house i was in charge of! and i think it went ok. there were a couple of things i shouldn't have mentioned about my substituting position and how i'm not sure what's happening. but i had both am and pm together and it seemed to go well. i was worried 60 parents would be there and instead, it was only about 20-30.