there are so many things in my life to be thankful for, but yesterday in church, i was very especially grateful for Trevor! Craig sat in Daddy's lap before the sacrament and seemed to be pretty good for him (which is a nice change because he has been a little awnry at church recently). It reminded me of how grateful i am to have such a wonderful priesthood leader in our family who can teach our child to sit and be reverent even when I am up on the stand for the music.
last Sunday, Trevor was not able to go and I was running late. So, Craig came up on the stand with me.... talk about a mistake. the first song, he walked a little. the next, he almost played the piano. then for the closing song, i thought i would hold him. halfway through, he's wanting down, to run around and decides to bite me!!!! it was a very rough day. i really missed Trevor and if i would've thought more, i would have sent him to be with my parents, but i kept thinking that ___ would make it better. if i hold him, he will be better....etc. it didn't. instead, i felt like a fool in front of everyone.
so yesterday, i was so relieved to have Trevor with us. he really is such a blessing in my life.
Monday, April 20, 2009
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
jobs
I have a part time job and Trevor will start his full time job December 15!!
i didn't know this until last fast Sunday, when Trevor bore his testimony and mentioned this. he talked about earlier this year he had applied for the same job he just got accepted for. He said that at the time, he really felt like it was the right thing to do, to apply for a technician job. however, he went through the long hiring process and then was denied the job. we were really bummed about it and confused.
But then, when his work buddy retired from a technician job, he mentioned to his newer boss that he was interested in working full time for public works and his boss made it seem like he would try and get that job opened for him to apply.
well, a month or so goes by and NOTHING. meanwhile, the economy is getting worse and worse and even more engineers (with degrees) are looking for jobs because they don't have one. finally, the jobs gets opened and we are bummed because they have to publicize the open position to the public (for at least a week to a month).
It turned out, that since the position was the same as the job Trevor interviewed and applied for just 6 months earlier, they could use all of those applications for this open job!! so within a week of the job opening AND closing, Trevor has an interview scheduled. we knew from before that either they will call you if you get the job within about 2 days OR, you will get declined via a letter in 2 weeks. well, his interview was on a Monday, but the week was a little weird with days off. Finally, after we were losing hope and having doubts, he was told this last Monday that he had the job.
I knew i needed to keep my faith and like i read in an ensign article a month or so back, Heavenly Father not only will test our faith, but He will test our patience. I know that we will continue to have more tests, but I'm glad that this one has finally worked out.
We really are blessed.
i didn't know this until last fast Sunday, when Trevor bore his testimony and mentioned this. he talked about earlier this year he had applied for the same job he just got accepted for. He said that at the time, he really felt like it was the right thing to do, to apply for a technician job. however, he went through the long hiring process and then was denied the job. we were really bummed about it and confused.
But then, when his work buddy retired from a technician job, he mentioned to his newer boss that he was interested in working full time for public works and his boss made it seem like he would try and get that job opened for him to apply.
well, a month or so goes by and NOTHING. meanwhile, the economy is getting worse and worse and even more engineers (with degrees) are looking for jobs because they don't have one. finally, the jobs gets opened and we are bummed because they have to publicize the open position to the public (for at least a week to a month).
It turned out, that since the position was the same as the job Trevor interviewed and applied for just 6 months earlier, they could use all of those applications for this open job!! so within a week of the job opening AND closing, Trevor has an interview scheduled. we knew from before that either they will call you if you get the job within about 2 days OR, you will get declined via a letter in 2 weeks. well, his interview was on a Monday, but the week was a little weird with days off. Finally, after we were losing hope and having doubts, he was told this last Monday that he had the job.
I knew i needed to keep my faith and like i read in an ensign article a month or so back, Heavenly Father not only will test our faith, but He will test our patience. I know that we will continue to have more tests, but I'm glad that this one has finally worked out.
We really are blessed.
conference talks
This month's ensign, i get to reread the conference talks! i have just started and i love the insight that i can gain from re-reading. Elder L. Tom Perry spoke about Thoroue living a more simple life and suggested we follow some of his guidelines. I love his quotes about similarities in modesty and thoughts. I'll have to actually get the talk and quote it. i also love that when he talked about debts, that smart families don't pay interest, they EARN it! that means they have investments and things to help their money grow more money. we do have credit card debt and need to decrease that, but also continue to save money for rainy days or car issues to help avoid using more credit cards and increasing the debt.
Saturday, November 1, 2008
watching over us
a lot has happened this month and i have been much behind of making note of my blessings.
First off, Trevor has been wonderful! i really am blessed with a wonderful husband. I had a job offer for a full time job and a part time job. I knew that working full time would stress me and make it really difficult and so Trevor said to take the half time job, even though it is less money.
Also, Heavenly Father has allowed us to have trevor's position finally open for interviews and he has the interview Monday. we will see how that goes. But i know that if we continue to do our part, Heavenly father will bless us.
First off, Trevor has been wonderful! i really am blessed with a wonderful husband. I had a job offer for a full time job and a part time job. I knew that working full time would stress me and make it really difficult and so Trevor said to take the half time job, even though it is less money.
Also, Heavenly Father has allowed us to have trevor's position finally open for interviews and he has the interview Monday. we will see how that goes. But i know that if we continue to do our part, Heavenly father will bless us.
Sunday, October 5, 2008
choose happiness
I decided to choose happiness in my life and it helped. Monday through Thursday (no class friday!! yay!!) i did it at school and at home and i really feel like it helped me. i took more time to breath and relax instead of letting myself react. that goes back to something we talked about in church a while back. I do not want Satan to help me react badly to things. Instead, i want to decide how I respond. I am not going to let silly drivers get the better of me and get upset over little things.
My husband is so fabulous! I had some horrendous misunderstandings on Friday and I got really upset over them. I don't know if i'm losing it or what? he said tropicana and i heard charleston!! they sound nothing alike. well, the next morning, saturday, he took craig and i for a drive and we had a picnic breakfast to try and watch the sunrise. it was magnificient! the sun did not end up showing too well, due to some very rare cloud coverage that made the sun invisible. but i enjoyed my time with my family and enjoyed feeling so loved by my husband.
My husband is so fabulous! I had some horrendous misunderstandings on Friday and I got really upset over them. I don't know if i'm losing it or what? he said tropicana and i heard charleston!! they sound nothing alike. well, the next morning, saturday, he took craig and i for a drive and we had a picnic breakfast to try and watch the sunrise. it was magnificient! the sun did not end up showing too well, due to some very rare cloud coverage that made the sun invisible. but i enjoyed my time with my family and enjoyed feeling so loved by my husband.
Sunday, September 28, 2008
spiritual uplifting
i have been having a hard time this past week. i'm trying to have more fun at school and enjoy my life, but it is hard. i was able to go to the women's conference broadcast on saturday and i am so grateful! i felt touched by so many wonderful words, especially President Uchtdorf (not sure how to spell his name).
also, today at church, we had fast Sunday and wonderful lesson going over 3 nephi 8-11. it was wonderful to be uplifted and reminded to focus on the positive in my life.
I decided to make a choice to be happy. I have usually inmy life been a happy person, but i'm not sure Trevor, or people in my life would say that so much anymore. I don't want that. I have some amazing things/people in my life and i want people to know that i appreciate it/them and people that i'm not so close to, i want them to know that i am happy because of all those blessings.
also, today at church, we had fast Sunday and wonderful lesson going over 3 nephi 8-11. it was wonderful to be uplifted and reminded to focus on the positive in my life.
I decided to make a choice to be happy. I have usually inmy life been a happy person, but i'm not sure Trevor, or people in my life would say that so much anymore. I don't want that. I have some amazing things/people in my life and i want people to know that i appreciate it/them and people that i'm not so close to, i want them to know that i am happy because of all those blessings.
Sunday, September 21, 2008
updates
this week, i had track one, the morning class start school and i was their substitute because their teacher had a baby on monday. and let me tell you that the class is wonderful! it helped me really realize that it is just a really difficult class in the afternoon.
I am very glad that i am able to be working. Jade McClellan is watching craig two days a week for us and my mom 2 days and anita watched him on friday! i have so many wonderful people in my life.
with the am class starting school, i remembered that i really do like teaching 5 year olds! they are very sweet. one little boy (and it was so chaotic the first day i don't have a clue who it was) brought me a rose the first day of school!! it's like he knew i had been having it tough and was thanking me for sticking with it! then, a couple days later, a girl in my pm class brought me a fake little rose, but was so sweet about it!
it was still a difficult time at times during my week, but i am enjoying parts of the day.
craig has so much fun! on tuesday, when i picked him up, he actually threw a fit that he had to leave! he had been riding a tricycle around the whole day, practically and loved it! i am so glad he is getting to be around other kids and will hopefully learn to share and get along with others better because of it.
i had my first open house i was in charge of! and i think it went ok. there were a couple of things i shouldn't have mentioned about my substituting position and how i'm not sure what's happening. but i had both am and pm together and it seemed to go well. i was worried 60 parents would be there and instead, it was only about 20-30.
I am very glad that i am able to be working. Jade McClellan is watching craig two days a week for us and my mom 2 days and anita watched him on friday! i have so many wonderful people in my life.
with the am class starting school, i remembered that i really do like teaching 5 year olds! they are very sweet. one little boy (and it was so chaotic the first day i don't have a clue who it was) brought me a rose the first day of school!! it's like he knew i had been having it tough and was thanking me for sticking with it! then, a couple days later, a girl in my pm class brought me a fake little rose, but was so sweet about it!
it was still a difficult time at times during my week, but i am enjoying parts of the day.
craig has so much fun! on tuesday, when i picked him up, he actually threw a fit that he had to leave! he had been riding a tricycle around the whole day, practically and loved it! i am so glad he is getting to be around other kids and will hopefully learn to share and get along with others better because of it.
i had my first open house i was in charge of! and i think it went ok. there were a couple of things i shouldn't have mentioned about my substituting position and how i'm not sure what's happening. but i had both am and pm together and it seemed to go well. i was worried 60 parents would be there and instead, it was only about 20-30.
Sunday, September 14, 2008
lessons
Today, in church, we had wonderful lessons given. our stake president challenged the bishoprics to not give topics for talks during sacrament meeting (i don't know for how long this has gone on, maybe this entire year). but i am so glad he was inspired and our speakers are inspired. we have had some very wonderful talks and i think it really helps not being tied down to a certain topic!
we had wonderful talks, gospel doctrine and relief society lesson. in gospel doctrine, we studied the prophecies of Samuel the lamanite and at one point the teacher was talking about how we need to keep hearing the same lessons, the basic points of the gospel because we still aren't getting it. i couldn't help but think of my pm kindergarten class. everyday, we review the rules of the class. yet everyday, rules are broken! we don't get to go play outside, snack, centers are rushed. all because we can't learn the basic rule of not talking when it should be quiet and being a polite listener. in kindergarten, we cannot do fun things if we can't do the simple things. it is the same with the gospel. there are more things for our church to learn. scriptures that have not been shared. but Heavenly father and our prophets cannot give them to us if we are not using the things we have already!
The gospel doctrine teacher even mentioned a man saying that we need to be ready! if the gates of India and China were to be flung open for missionary work and we were able to freely send missionaries over there, all the missionaries would be taken for the north America. but we are not self sufficient enough in sharing the gospel to be able to do it without called missionaries. it just reminds us that we still have lots of work to do!
a fun lady in relief society mentioned that everyone makes a big deal of global warning and she says forget about global warming. we need to be spreading the news about the second coming like it is even more important than global warning!! especially since it is!!
a wonderful quote i heard today, "Ponder the blessings we've been given". it made me think! i need to make sure that i think about the things we have been given and recognize those. that is one of the reasons that i started this. to allow myself the time and place to make note of the wonderful things in my life.
we had wonderful talks, gospel doctrine and relief society lesson. in gospel doctrine, we studied the prophecies of Samuel the lamanite and at one point the teacher was talking about how we need to keep hearing the same lessons, the basic points of the gospel because we still aren't getting it. i couldn't help but think of my pm kindergarten class. everyday, we review the rules of the class. yet everyday, rules are broken! we don't get to go play outside, snack, centers are rushed. all because we can't learn the basic rule of not talking when it should be quiet and being a polite listener. in kindergarten, we cannot do fun things if we can't do the simple things. it is the same with the gospel. there are more things for our church to learn. scriptures that have not been shared. but Heavenly father and our prophets cannot give them to us if we are not using the things we have already!
The gospel doctrine teacher even mentioned a man saying that we need to be ready! if the gates of India and China were to be flung open for missionary work and we were able to freely send missionaries over there, all the missionaries would be taken for the north America. but we are not self sufficient enough in sharing the gospel to be able to do it without called missionaries. it just reminds us that we still have lots of work to do!
a fun lady in relief society mentioned that everyone makes a big deal of global warning and she says forget about global warming. we need to be spreading the news about the second coming like it is even more important than global warning!! especially since it is!!
a wonderful quote i heard today, "Ponder the blessings we've been given". it made me think! i need to make sure that i think about the things we have been given and recognize those. that is one of the reasons that i started this. to allow myself the time and place to make note of the wonderful things in my life.
Friday, September 12, 2008
anita
i just wanted to take a moment to think about how grateful i am for anita ross. she is always letting us come over to the house that she is staying at and go swimming, or play her Wii and rockband, or just hanging out. she has watched craig for us on almost every Friday that she has off of work since January! plus, she is so amazing. she is so very special to all of her nieces and nephews and they love to have fun with her. the other night we were over there and she stopped what she was doing to make sure she got her time in for scripture study and was reading 10 pages a night to read the book of mormon in a year as inspired by president gordon b hinckley! she is so wonderful! not more, but she had a guy over there doing it with her!!! she is totally improving this mans life, not only by him hanging out with her, but she is making sure that they read and discuss scriptures daily!
Anita is really a special person and i know Heavenly Father has special things in mind for her.
Anita is really a special person and i know Heavenly Father has special things in mind for her.
Thursday, September 11, 2008
heidi
the other day, Heidi (my sister who is always trying to tell Craig what to do, or having a cow about something he is doing), Heidi had a dr's appointment. when they get home, my mom tells me that she has something for Craig. at the end of her appointment, she got to pick out a lollipop. she turned to my mom and asked "what about Craig?". and so, dear Heidi does like Craig and brought him home a lollipop.
it sure did make my day! and i think craig!
it sure did make my day! and i think craig!
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
more about work
my class was still difficult today, but i had help today! we went to the library today (for the last time until track 1 is back out) and many people tried to help my students. i like to know that it is not just me. it is a difficult class and a difficult group. the individuals would still be hard if they were split up, but all together, it is very hard.
Today, after school, the literacy specialist came in and gave me a vase of roses!!! it was so sweet. she brought them to me to help me feel appreciated. she also had flowers for another lady who was having a hard time. it was so nice!
i am very grateful for all the help i got today and that others understand that it is hard. today, another lady said to me "we are all surprised to see that you come back everyday" . it made me laugh!
Today, after school, the literacy specialist came in and gave me a vase of roses!!! it was so sweet. she brought them to me to help me feel appreciated. she also had flowers for another lady who was having a hard time. it was so nice!
i am very grateful for all the help i got today and that others understand that it is hard. today, another lady said to me "we are all surprised to see that you come back everyday" . it made me laugh!
my class
things have not really gotten any better with my class. i have a microphone that works, so that is helping. however, when one student has a better day, another decides to act up. every day when we go outside, it takes us a couple minutes when we are in line just to stop talking and settle down enough to go inside to cool off.
but, a wonderful mom who helped out last year, offered to help a little yesterday and tested half my class! without her, i'm not sure how i could have gotten all those testing done. she really is wonderful and doesn't even have a kid in kinder anymore, but is helping all three of the kinder teachers! she really is a blessing sent from heaven.
but, a wonderful mom who helped out last year, offered to help a little yesterday and tested half my class! without her, i'm not sure how i could have gotten all those testing done. she really is wonderful and doesn't even have a kid in kinder anymore, but is helping all three of the kinder teachers! she really is a blessing sent from heaven.
Sunday, September 7, 2008
struggling
Last week, with my class, i had a very hard week. i have several students who like to act out and then they are just very talkative and immature! but Friday was a little better. i'm trying my best to encourage and reward positive behaviors. i looked up tons of ideas from other teachers that i got all last year. i was even going to video record so i could see what i could do better. i talked with the two other teachers before school started and they reassured me that things will get better and it is not just me or just my class. all of them are having a hard time, but it will get better. one of them was the lady i had my practicum with last fall. she is really a great teacher and everyday i think about how she taught something. she was so sweet. she said that if her daughter was going to the school, she would put her in my class and not worry about it.
Friday was better.
i think i'm having a harder time because craig is being more grumpy too. i am so grateful for the sweet moments with him that remind me how precious he is and how i still need to teach him too.
i'm also sick, with a cold and my head is all congested. it makes me appreciate all the times that i feel better. i'm glad that we don't get sick very often.
i got a random call this week, from Laura (Henrie) Pennock. it was such a surprise but it was nice to talk to her again. we went to high school together and she was my best friend the last two years of it. it was nice to hear how she is doing. i am very grateful for her friendship during high school and the good impact she had on my life.
Friday was better.
i think i'm having a harder time because craig is being more grumpy too. i am so grateful for the sweet moments with him that remind me how precious he is and how i still need to teach him too.
i'm also sick, with a cold and my head is all congested. it makes me appreciate all the times that i feel better. i'm glad that we don't get sick very often.
i got a random call this week, from Laura (Henrie) Pennock. it was such a surprise but it was nice to talk to her again. we went to high school together and she was my best friend the last two years of it. it was nice to hear how she is doing. i am very grateful for her friendship during high school and the good impact she had on my life.
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
Temples
I was emailed this wonderful video today! honestly, i thought it would be kinda lame at first, but i watched it and it was wonderful! it really touched my heart to see how many temples we have around the world. at first, i thought they did north america wrong, but at the end, they showed north america again! our prophets are so amazing and i love the quote at the end from bruce mckonkie! there might be hundreds or thousands of temples before the second coming!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u7_CRN74Ues
now, this is not put out by the church, i don't think, but someone wonderful made it. I love our church!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u7_CRN74Ues
now, this is not put out by the church, i don't think, but someone wonderful made it. I love our church!
Tuesday, September 2, 2008
help
Yesterday, we spent most of the day over at Anita's. it was very fun. we got in the pool, then got out to eat a little. Craig was acting tired, so i changed him out of his swim trunks and tried to lay down with him and read a book. however, it did not work. he ended up swimming again (kinda. he would put his feet in and play around the edge of the pool, but never really liked to get in above his knees the silly boy. well, he was getting pretty grumpy and so we went inside and tried to calm him down. finally, Trevor came to my rescue and was able to get him to go to sleep around 3!
I am so grateful for my husband! he can be firmer with Craig and Craig will do things for him that he might not do for me. I'm grateful that we were able to enjoy time together with family yesterday and enjoy our longer labor day weekend! Trevor's parents, Curtis and even Lynette and Mark (Trevor's cousin) came over with their three kids! it was nice being with family.
Also, Trevor is encouraging us all to be a little healthier. I didn't get to workout this morning, but I'm hoping to be able to go for a walk today after work. I'm not feeling too well and want to get hings done for school this afternoon. but i am hoping that with both of us working on it, we will be better about exercising and making better choices!
I am so grateful for my husband! he can be firmer with Craig and Craig will do things for him that he might not do for me. I'm grateful that we were able to enjoy time together with family yesterday and enjoy our longer labor day weekend! Trevor's parents, Curtis and even Lynette and Mark (Trevor's cousin) came over with their three kids! it was nice being with family.
Also, Trevor is encouraging us all to be a little healthier. I didn't get to workout this morning, but I'm hoping to be able to go for a walk today after work. I'm not feeling too well and want to get hings done for school this afternoon. but i am hoping that with both of us working on it, we will be better about exercising and making better choices!
Sunday, August 31, 2008
church
i really have liked our new gospel doctrine teacher. last week we had a wonderful lesson and today's lesson was great. we were discussing Helaman 1-5 and there are some really amazing scriptures. but in chapter 1, i think, we were discussing the chief judge and his family. well, the father died and three of his sons wanted to take over for him. in the end, two are killed over the judgement seat and a war is started because of this. and the teacher drew to our attention that by ruining and causing contention in a family, Satan was able to destroy an entire people!! and it is the same for us today!! if we are not focusing on our families and trying to uplift those, then our country has no luck in surviving. this point really hit me!
a while back, a man teacher mentioned to me his feelings of who we should be voting for in the coming election (he was democrat and hoping for Hilary Clinton). he stressed that especially since i was going into education, i should vote for someone who will act smartly regarding education and students. well, at the time, i didn't say much, but thinking about it later, i realized that i would protect the family and by supporting the family and things being taught in the family, it didn't matter if things were a little crazy in schools, because the important things could be taught in a safe, and protected home and marriage!! so i will protect the marriage and family and in turn, that will better the future for students, education and my life!
a while back, a man teacher mentioned to me his feelings of who we should be voting for in the coming election (he was democrat and hoping for Hilary Clinton). he stressed that especially since i was going into education, i should vote for someone who will act smartly regarding education and students. well, at the time, i didn't say much, but thinking about it later, i realized that i would protect the family and by supporting the family and things being taught in the family, it didn't matter if things were a little crazy in schools, because the important things could be taught in a safe, and protected home and marriage!! so i will protect the marriage and family and in turn, that will better the future for students, education and my life!
Friday, August 29, 2008
teaching!
well, school is going good! each day, my class gets better! i have 26 students and many who understand and speak limited English. i'm very glad i'm at the school i'm at and not a different region. i know i would adjust, but in some areas, the students know even less english!!! and it's more of the majority. so i am lucky. we'll see where i get hired, but for now, thinking positively! :D
i have a couple of students who are quite the handfuls! but they are still fun and i really do enjoy the entire teaching experience. last night, i couldn't go to sleep because i kept thinking about different ways i could help certain students. also, today, i was trying to read my scriptures and i was half reading, half thinking about a way to better help a student. it's really funny. but i want them to succeed so very much!! even (or especially) the ones that may be more difficult or have a harder time. i really am lucky.
i think i could do kindergarten (and by do, i think i would teach kindergarten again, in the future). yes, it may be more work at the beginning of the year, but i think for me and my preferences, first grade would be more difficult at the end of the year. either way, we'll see, but for now, once again, the positive! :)
Heavenly Father certainly blessed me with a spirit of teaching! i have a couple of students with an IEP and i am trying to better understand their needs. but also, there are students that speak very little if no english and they have needs. then there are all the students who might need more attention and can't sit still as long. i just know these students are going to grow and learn so much in just one year! i really wish i could stay with them the whole year.
i just realized that i might seem a little crazy to some people. today, at the end of the day, some people asked how it went and i would reply, "better", or "i see progress". it wasn't really a good day, or a great day. definitely not horrible (because there is improvement). But right now, i am happy. i am just fine with being in my class (well, you know, substituting, but still, i'm their teacher for now). i wouldn't switch it for another class that might have less 'difficult' kids or less kids with an iep, or that understood english. i have seen progress in these past 4 days and i know that next week will improve and that just makes me happy. i know these students and i could not just abandon them! i am happy where i am and i'm very grateful for that!
i think it helps that i wish i could continue to teach for just a half-day. but i also know how very much we desire and need a house. we cannot have another baby in our living condition right now and so it needs to change within the next year. so we will see what happens. someday, the county will be able to hire teachers and i will get hired and Trevor will get hired. hopefully sooner than i! but i have trust and faith in Heavenly father. He is watching us and guiding and helping us! i am very grateful.
one last thing, i have to mention Craig! it has been nice to have a little break from Craig. i wish it was smaller, but i love him! he is so fun! i try to wake us both up in time for him to get to play out in the back yard before it gets too hot and sunburn time. it is so fun! he is such a good little boy. he is talking more and more each day and i love the things he learns and to see the changes daily!
i have a couple of students who are quite the handfuls! but they are still fun and i really do enjoy the entire teaching experience. last night, i couldn't go to sleep because i kept thinking about different ways i could help certain students. also, today, i was trying to read my scriptures and i was half reading, half thinking about a way to better help a student. it's really funny. but i want them to succeed so very much!! even (or especially) the ones that may be more difficult or have a harder time. i really am lucky.
i think i could do kindergarten (and by do, i think i would teach kindergarten again, in the future). yes, it may be more work at the beginning of the year, but i think for me and my preferences, first grade would be more difficult at the end of the year. either way, we'll see, but for now, once again, the positive! :)
Heavenly Father certainly blessed me with a spirit of teaching! i have a couple of students with an IEP and i am trying to better understand their needs. but also, there are students that speak very little if no english and they have needs. then there are all the students who might need more attention and can't sit still as long. i just know these students are going to grow and learn so much in just one year! i really wish i could stay with them the whole year.
i just realized that i might seem a little crazy to some people. today, at the end of the day, some people asked how it went and i would reply, "better", or "i see progress". it wasn't really a good day, or a great day. definitely not horrible (because there is improvement). But right now, i am happy. i am just fine with being in my class (well, you know, substituting, but still, i'm their teacher for now). i wouldn't switch it for another class that might have less 'difficult' kids or less kids with an iep, or that understood english. i have seen progress in these past 4 days and i know that next week will improve and that just makes me happy. i know these students and i could not just abandon them! i am happy where i am and i'm very grateful for that!
i think it helps that i wish i could continue to teach for just a half-day. but i also know how very much we desire and need a house. we cannot have another baby in our living condition right now and so it needs to change within the next year. so we will see what happens. someday, the county will be able to hire teachers and i will get hired and Trevor will get hired. hopefully sooner than i! but i have trust and faith in Heavenly father. He is watching us and guiding and helping us! i am very grateful.
one last thing, i have to mention Craig! it has been nice to have a little break from Craig. i wish it was smaller, but i love him! he is so fun! i try to wake us both up in time for him to get to play out in the back yard before it gets too hot and sunburn time. it is so fun! he is such a good little boy. he is talking more and more each day and i love the things he learns and to see the changes daily!
Thursday, August 28, 2008
school and enjoying
well, i have had two days in the kindergarten and it is the third day of school. i must say that that first day for me, was pretty miserable! we had 25-5 year olds! i had 3-5 adults in the room the entire time and hallelujah! we were able to have some adults help with one on one for some kids and i was still able to help with the entire class. yesterday, was even better. i was surprised and went to the library for an hour of the time (with mrs. greenberg's class- special ed inclusion). so that helped. the librarian taught kinder for 5 years, so she knows them very well. we are just working on going over the rules tons and i think they will get adjusted to school and procedures.
when we came back on Saturday from st. george, it was WONDERFUL to see Craig again! i really think it was good to have an overnight without him. I did miss him while we were gone and even thought about taking him with us. but this is the one time a year that we have an overnighter without him, plus i knew he would not sit still for the play. so we took advantage of it and it was so good to come home and to be able to enjoy him even more and not lose my patience over little things! i hope i can keep this up and be a better mom, even with working and things.
well, school is back in session for Trevor. uggh! this is going to be difficult for him, i think. he is ready to be done and yet he isn't. i pray that I'll be able to help him hang in there. he has 2 classes and a study class for his big professional engineer test. also, with work, the man retired and so we are waiting for the job to be advertised and he can apply! we are still praying that things will work out.
no news about the hiring freeze for me, but i am almost kinda glad that i don't have my own class yet and am just substituting and getting used to being on my own a little. we'll see how this kinder goes, but i might switch to preferring first grade.
i am enjoying spending the mornings still with Craig. i definitely have a blessing being able to work a little, but still enjoy time with Craig.
when we came back on Saturday from st. george, it was WONDERFUL to see Craig again! i really think it was good to have an overnight without him. I did miss him while we were gone and even thought about taking him with us. but this is the one time a year that we have an overnighter without him, plus i knew he would not sit still for the play. so we took advantage of it and it was so good to come home and to be able to enjoy him even more and not lose my patience over little things! i hope i can keep this up and be a better mom, even with working and things.
well, school is back in session for Trevor. uggh! this is going to be difficult for him, i think. he is ready to be done and yet he isn't. i pray that I'll be able to help him hang in there. he has 2 classes and a study class for his big professional engineer test. also, with work, the man retired and so we are waiting for the job to be advertised and he can apply! we are still praying that things will work out.
no news about the hiring freeze for me, but i am almost kinda glad that i don't have my own class yet and am just substituting and getting used to being on my own a little. we'll see how this kinder goes, but i might switch to preferring first grade.
i am enjoying spending the mornings still with Craig. i definitely have a blessing being able to work a little, but still enjoy time with Craig.
Sunday, August 24, 2008
a ray of sunshine
well, this last week, i was getting a little down and having a little more trouble focusing on my blessings and the good things in life. i moved my Book of Mormon into the bathroom so that i could read my scriptures a little more and it worked. i read at least a chapter a day and was able to read a little at a time and digest the couple of verses i read.
well, then it was our anniversary and we have a little tradition of going up to tuacahn in st. george to see in a play. my mom agreed to watch Craig again this year so that we could go and we drove up with Trevor's parents. it was a nice trip, although honestly, carpooling on trips is not my favorite. it was a little difficult not being able to just relax when we wanted to. but we all saved money and gas and we got to talk more and i got to know mom and dad better. in a good way. overall, it was fun!
on Friday, i received a message from a principal at marion earl, the school i did my student teaching, practicum and went there for elementary school myself! it was the new vice principal asking if i wanted the half day kindergarten substitute position. all day long i tried to call her back, but she was either busy or i had no reception (we stayed in mesquite because i, as a ccsd employee, got a free room!!!) driving through the gorge. (we ate lunch in st. george, the went back to the hotel because we had nothing else to do and wanted a nap)
Finally, i was able to get a call from the principal that i knew before and she offered me the sub position for half day kindergarten, again! i had declined it earlier in august, hoping to work at another full time school. apparently, a man had picked up the job and come in on Friday and the principal did not like her. so, she will tell him on Monday that it is not working and i can come in on Tuesday. ALSO, there's MORE!! :D the morning kindergarten teacher is pregnant and due any day (Melissa jolley/mendenhall, who i know, lds) and they wondered if i would be her sub while she was out on maternity leave! so i could work full time, in the same room in kindergarten! it's not a real teaching job, but a job is better than no job! i was thrilled! i knew right away all of the prayers on my behalf had helped and i was reminded how much Heavenly Father loves me! He loves my family. He really does look after us and knows what is best for us. i might still have half days with Craig but i know there is hope for getting a little more money and someday this hiring freeze will be over and ccsd can hire many teachers to fill the positions being filled right now by substitutes.
In the end, there was a ray of sunshine to my day and the many comments of hope and encouragement from my blog were wonderful.
well, then it was our anniversary and we have a little tradition of going up to tuacahn in st. george to see in a play. my mom agreed to watch Craig again this year so that we could go and we drove up with Trevor's parents. it was a nice trip, although honestly, carpooling on trips is not my favorite. it was a little difficult not being able to just relax when we wanted to. but we all saved money and gas and we got to talk more and i got to know mom and dad better. in a good way. overall, it was fun!
on Friday, i received a message from a principal at marion earl, the school i did my student teaching, practicum and went there for elementary school myself! it was the new vice principal asking if i wanted the half day kindergarten substitute position. all day long i tried to call her back, but she was either busy or i had no reception (we stayed in mesquite because i, as a ccsd employee, got a free room!!!) driving through the gorge. (we ate lunch in st. george, the went back to the hotel because we had nothing else to do and wanted a nap)
Finally, i was able to get a call from the principal that i knew before and she offered me the sub position for half day kindergarten, again! i had declined it earlier in august, hoping to work at another full time school. apparently, a man had picked up the job and come in on Friday and the principal did not like her. so, she will tell him on Monday that it is not working and i can come in on Tuesday. ALSO, there's MORE!! :D the morning kindergarten teacher is pregnant and due any day (Melissa jolley/mendenhall, who i know, lds) and they wondered if i would be her sub while she was out on maternity leave! so i could work full time, in the same room in kindergarten! it's not a real teaching job, but a job is better than no job! i was thrilled! i knew right away all of the prayers on my behalf had helped and i was reminded how much Heavenly Father loves me! He loves my family. He really does look after us and knows what is best for us. i might still have half days with Craig but i know there is hope for getting a little more money and someday this hiring freeze will be over and ccsd can hire many teachers to fill the positions being filled right now by substitutes.
In the end, there was a ray of sunshine to my day and the many comments of hope and encouragement from my blog were wonderful.
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
my husband
WOW! we have been married for 3 years today and I can't believe it. sometimes, it feels like we were just married and other times, it seems like it has been much longer. and both ways are positive. Trevor is so great to me. He is such a blessing in my life. he is a great father and husband. i am very grateful for how easily school comes for him. i'm grateful he chose a very good career and is sticking with getting his education. most of his classes, he has seen other students struggling to understand the concepts and he is able to understand them very well. we have both seen in our families the difficulties with schooling and now how very important it is to get the education to have a backup. I know that it has been more and more difficult to stick with college, but i know even more how much it will be worth it. if i ever get a teaching job, i will start in nv at about $30,000 whereas when he graduates, he will start at about $60,000! he was able to get and maintain scholarships that have paid us back for him going to school and he also got us a pell grant for a couple of years.otherwise, i know i would not have gotten my degree.
i am so grateful for his comedy. he is able to make me laugh and help me feel better when i am grumpy or upset. i love talking with him. he listens and understands me so well. of course, our marriage isn't perfect, but he works with me so we can understand each other. sometimes, when neither one of us can fall asleep, we will stay up and just talk. those are one of my favorite times. we just talk about the future, or our worries. he understands that sometimes i don't know what to say to make things better.
i am so grateful for the wonderful father he is. i have written about it in the past a little, but every sunday, i see him sitting with craig and doing such a great job of teaching our son at an early age the important things about church. craig has so much fun playing with his daddy and goofing off. and then when craig gets in trouble, he listens to trevor so much better, i am grateful for the strength he provides for our family. i don't want him to be the bad guy, always disciplining, but it is apparent that craig knows to listen to his daddy (usually).
trevor helps me when i need help. for example, last night, i was getting craig ready to take a bath and took off his clothes (except diaper) and sent craig in the other room while i still grabbed his pjs out and his lotion, toothbrush, found a pacifier and teddy. well, i go into the other room and trevor is already getting him in the tub and the water going! i didn't need to ask him, but it was so nice to know that i have someone there to help me.
well, i could go on and on, but i need to get other things done today. i am grateful that i was able to take the time to remind myself of the wonderful qualities in my husband and be reminded that Heavenly Father really blessed me when i met Trevor.
i am so grateful for his comedy. he is able to make me laugh and help me feel better when i am grumpy or upset. i love talking with him. he listens and understands me so well. of course, our marriage isn't perfect, but he works with me so we can understand each other. sometimes, when neither one of us can fall asleep, we will stay up and just talk. those are one of my favorite times. we just talk about the future, or our worries. he understands that sometimes i don't know what to say to make things better.
i am so grateful for the wonderful father he is. i have written about it in the past a little, but every sunday, i see him sitting with craig and doing such a great job of teaching our son at an early age the important things about church. craig has so much fun playing with his daddy and goofing off. and then when craig gets in trouble, he listens to trevor so much better, i am grateful for the strength he provides for our family. i don't want him to be the bad guy, always disciplining, but it is apparent that craig knows to listen to his daddy (usually).
trevor helps me when i need help. for example, last night, i was getting craig ready to take a bath and took off his clothes (except diaper) and sent craig in the other room while i still grabbed his pjs out and his lotion, toothbrush, found a pacifier and teddy. well, i go into the other room and trevor is already getting him in the tub and the water going! i didn't need to ask him, but it was so nice to know that i have someone there to help me.
well, i could go on and on, but i need to get other things done today. i am grateful that i was able to take the time to remind myself of the wonderful qualities in my husband and be reminded that Heavenly Father really blessed me when i met Trevor.
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