it's been a while

there are so many things in my life to be thankful for, but yesterday in church, i was very especially grateful for Trevor! Craig sat in Daddy's lap before the sacrament and seemed to be pretty good for him (which is a nice change because he has been a little awnry at church recently). It reminded me of how grateful i am to have such a wonderful priesthood leader in our family who can teach our child to sit and be reverent even when I am up on the stand for the music.

last Sunday, Trevor was not able to go and I was running late. So, Craig came up on the stand with me.... talk about a mistake. the first song, he walked a little. the next, he almost played the piano. then for the closing song, i thought i would hold him. halfway through, he's wanting down, to run around and decides to bite me!!!! it was a very rough day. i really missed Trevor and if i would've thought more, i would have sent him to be with my parents, but i kept thinking that ___ would make it better. if i hold him, he will be better....etc. it didn't. instead, i felt like a fool in front of everyone.

so yesterday, i was so relieved to have Trevor with us. he really is such a blessing in my life.

jobs

I have a part time job and Trevor will start his full time job December 15!!

i didn't know this until last fast Sunday, when Trevor bore his testimony and mentioned this. he talked about earlier this year he had applied for the same job he just got accepted for. He said that at the time, he really felt like it was the right thing to do, to apply for a technician job. however, he went through the long hiring process and then was denied the job. we were really bummed about it and confused.

But then, when his work buddy retired from a technician job, he mentioned to his newer boss that he was interested in working full time for public works and his boss made it seem like he would try and get that job opened for him to apply.

well, a month or so goes by and NOTHING. meanwhile, the economy is getting worse and worse and even more engineers (with degrees) are looking for jobs because they don't have one. finally, the jobs gets opened and we are bummed because they have to publicize the open position to the public (for at least a week to a month).

It turned out, that since the position was the same as the job Trevor interviewed and applied for just 6 months earlier, they could use all of those applications for this open job!! so within a week of the job opening AND closing, Trevor has an interview scheduled. we knew from before that either they will call you if you get the job within about 2 days OR, you will get declined via a letter in 2 weeks. well, his interview was on a Monday, but the week was a little weird with days off. Finally, after we were losing hope and having doubts, he was told this last Monday that he had the job.

I knew i needed to keep my faith and like i read in an ensign article a month or so back, Heavenly Father not only will test our faith, but He will test our patience. I know that we will continue to have more tests, but I'm glad that this one has finally worked out.

We really are blessed.

choose happiness

I decided to choose happiness in my life and it helped. Monday through Thursday (no class friday!! yay!!) i did it at school and at home and i really feel like it helped me. i took more time to breath and relax instead of letting myself react. that goes back to something we talked about in church a while back. I do not want Satan to help me react badly to things. Instead, i want to decide how I respond. I am not going to let silly drivers get the better of me and get upset over little things.

My husband is so fabulous! I had some horrendous misunderstandings on Friday and I got really upset over them. I don't know if i'm losing it or what? he said tropicana and i heard charleston!! they sound nothing alike. well, the next morning, saturday, he took craig and i for a drive and we had a picnic breakfast to try and watch the sunrise. it was magnificient! the sun did not end up showing too well, due to some very rare cloud coverage that made the sun invisible. but i enjoyed my time with my family and enjoyed feeling so loved by my husband.

help

Yesterday, we spent most of the day over at Anita's. it was very fun. we got in the pool, then got out to eat a little. Craig was acting tired, so i changed him out of his swim trunks and tried to lay down with him and read a book. however, it did not work. he ended up swimming again (kinda. he would put his feet in and play around the edge of the pool, but never really liked to get in above his knees the silly boy. well, he was getting pretty grumpy and so we went inside and tried to calm him down. finally, Trevor came to my rescue and was able to get him to go to sleep around 3!

I am so grateful for my husband! he can be firmer with Craig and Craig will do things for him that he might not do for me. I'm grateful that we were able to enjoy time together with family yesterday and enjoy our longer labor day weekend! Trevor's parents, Curtis and even Lynette and Mark (Trevor's cousin) came over with their three kids! it was nice being with family.

Also, Trevor is encouraging us all to be a little healthier. I didn't get to workout this morning, but I'm hoping to be able to go for a walk today after work. I'm not feeling too well and want to get hings done for school this afternoon. but i am hoping that with both of us working on it, we will be better about exercising and making better choices!

school and enjoying

well, i have had two days in the kindergarten and it is the third day of school. i must say that that first day for me, was pretty miserable! we had 25-5 year olds! i had 3-5 adults in the room the entire time and hallelujah! we were able to have some adults help with one on one for some kids and i was still able to help with the entire class. yesterday, was even better. i was surprised and went to the library for an hour of the time (with mrs. greenberg's class- special ed inclusion). so that helped. the librarian taught kinder for 5 years, so she knows them very well. we are just working on going over the rules tons and i think they will get adjusted to school and procedures.

when we came back on Saturday from st. george, it was WONDERFUL to see Craig again! i really think it was good to have an overnight without him. I did miss him while we were gone and even thought about taking him with us. but this is the one time a year that we have an overnighter without him, plus i knew he would not sit still for the play. so we took advantage of it and it was so good to come home and to be able to enjoy him even more and not lose my patience over little things! i hope i can keep this up and be a better mom, even with working and things.

well, school is back in session for Trevor. uggh! this is going to be difficult for him, i think. he is ready to be done and yet he isn't. i pray that I'll be able to help him hang in there. he has 2 classes and a study class for his big professional engineer test. also, with work, the man retired and so we are waiting for the job to be advertised and he can apply! we are still praying that things will work out.

no news about the hiring freeze for me, but i am almost kinda glad that i don't have my own class yet and am just substituting and getting used to being on my own a little. we'll see how this kinder goes, but i might switch to preferring first grade.

i am enjoying spending the mornings still with Craig. i definitely have a blessing being able to work a little, but still enjoy time with Craig.

my husband

WOW! we have been married for 3 years today and I can't believe it. sometimes, it feels like we were just married and other times, it seems like it has been much longer. and both ways are positive. Trevor is so great to me. He is such a blessing in my life. he is a great father and husband. i am very grateful for how easily school comes for him. i'm grateful he chose a very good career and is sticking with getting his education. most of his classes, he has seen other students struggling to understand the concepts and he is able to understand them very well. we have both seen in our families the difficulties with schooling and now how very important it is to get the education to have a backup. I know that it has been more and more difficult to stick with college, but i know even more how much it will be worth it. if i ever get a teaching job, i will start in nv at about $30,000 whereas when he graduates, he will start at about $60,000! he was able to get and maintain scholarships that have paid us back for him going to school and he also got us a pell grant for a couple of years.otherwise, i know i would not have gotten my degree.

i am so grateful for his comedy. he is able to make me laugh and help me feel better when i am grumpy or upset. i love talking with him. he listens and understands me so well. of course, our marriage isn't perfect, but he works with me so we can understand each other. sometimes, when neither one of us can fall asleep, we will stay up and just talk. those are one of my favorite times. we just talk about the future, or our worries. he understands that sometimes i don't know what to say to make things better.

i am so grateful for the wonderful father he is. i have written about it in the past a little, but every sunday, i see him sitting with craig and doing such a great job of teaching our son at an early age the important things about church. craig has so much fun playing with his daddy and goofing off. and then when craig gets in trouble, he listens to trevor so much better, i am grateful for the strength he provides for our family. i don't want him to be the bad guy, always disciplining, but it is apparent that craig knows to listen to his daddy (usually).

trevor helps me when i need help. for example, last night, i was getting craig ready to take a bath and took off his clothes (except diaper) and sent craig in the other room while i still grabbed his pjs out and his lotion, toothbrush, found a pacifier and teddy. well, i go into the other room and trevor is already getting him in the tub and the water going! i didn't need to ask him, but it was so nice to know that i have someone there to help me.
well, i could go on and on, but i need to get other things done today. i am grateful that i was able to take the time to remind myself of the wonderful qualities in my husband and be reminded that Heavenly Father really blessed me when i met Trevor.

Craig

I really enjoy being with Craig. During the day, he is usually so good for me! Of course, when he starte getting tired at night, he is not so happy. And by the end of the day, Trevor and I are tired too and our patience is a little low. We both are working on being better.

But yesterday, we went visiting teaching and he was really good for me. When i was getting him dressed in his pjs, he was so fun to cuddle with. He found a fun board book at the library Are you Sleepy, Petey? and he really likes it. It's a little boy trying to get his little puppy to go to sleep and Craig thinks it is so fun.

well, when I put Craig in his crib, he didn't seem too tired still (he started jumping up and down), so i left two books with him for 5-10 minutes. then, later I went in and told him it was time to go to sleep, so i turned off the rest of the lights, tooks his books and pulled his blanket over him. He fell asleep soon after. He is so good for us.

I am so grateful for Trevor and his striving to be better. He always is helping, supporting and encouraging me to be better also.

And Craig, he is such a great child of our Heavenly Father's. I have always known, since he was born, that Heavenly Father blessed us with Craig, a fairly easier first child, since we gave in and had a child while we were both still going to school.

Trevor and I both had scholarships for UNLV that paid us to go to school. Neither of us could stop going to school, or else we would lose the scholarships. And if we lost the scholarship, I probably would not have finished school.

But Heavenly Father blessed us for being faithful and helped us by choosing a wonderfully easier child. Craig didn't have very many problems with sleeping when he was younger, he picked up on nursing pretty good, took a bottle and pacifier. he didn't like cereal, but he liked eating banana and other baby food.